There’s a Virus in my head, a virus called depression (trigger warning)- Komal Raval, Aahana

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There is a virus 

I call depression .

Inside my head, 

affecting the whole body. 

Being surrounded by people suffocates me, 

Sitting alone comforts me. 

I want to share how I feel, 

But I doubt will they feel. 

Chattering people irritate me, 

Sheer silence with book rejoice me. 

I smile in public, 

I cry alone. 

Positivity replaced by negativity, 

Brightness replaced by dullness, 

Happiness replaced by sadness. 

Still, I assure myself saying one day everything is going to be alright. 

Days, months and years passed by, 

The little shadow of a Demon propagated all over the head, 

It started with the “only” reason for this darkness, which is now superseded with darkness for  “every” reason. 

The guilt, helplessness, hopelessness made me worthless. 

One step ahead wreaks me two steps back. 

And I was soo very tired, 

I decided to give up, 

With muse to end up. 

This is how virus dispersed inside me… slowly and darkly it devoured me … This is my misery 

What is yours..????  

 -By Komal Raval (Aahana)